Friday, February 26, 2021

Start the Day with a Successful Morning

I love my days late and the mornings bubbling...For a long time, I used to start my morning pretty late, as my office hours were usually starting around 11.00 o´clock. I kept telling myself that the more qualifications and academic credentials one has, the later in the morning should wake up. Being up late - which also included very long (at least one full hour) breakfasts, a habit I still maintain nowadays - was my intellectual title of glory, which separated me from the working class (it sounds nasty, but some thoughts can be this way, no reason to apologize about). Until things went very complicated and had to maintain an extra business out of the normal working hours, and a mini-family and started to feel disconnected for a very short while with my creative/writing self so had to save myself before it was too late and start doing at least ´six impossible things before breakfast´.


Laura Vanderkam´s What the Most Successful People do Before Breakfast - which I had access to in audio format, read by the author herself on a very soothing voice - confirmed most of the things I was doing by default for a couple of years already. Waking up early in the morning - 5.30 is my favorite time of the day - helps setting up priorities, fully enjoying time for oneself and focusing on important activities, such as writing or exercising or building up your side business. 

There are 168 hours in a week but not all hours are equal. The willpower is high, the amount of distractions - mostly social media - is limited, You can manage a relatively limited yet sufficient amount of time for a high focus on the daily priorites, being grateful, meditating or praying. In my case, I used to spend this time going through the long bureaucratic proceedings, writing blog posts, learning a new language, meditating and a basic workout. Having enough time to prepare my cardamom coffee and drinking it slowly, without being interrupted every gulp is one of the most promising start into the working day. This is how I got the best reconnected to myself after the night sleep. 

Laura Vanderkam based her inspiring recommendations following extensive interviews and discussions with successful CEOs and Fortune 500 managers. The results reflect a high diversity of activities and suggestions. At the end of the day, everyone should be able to select the list of activities and create the picture of a perfect morning corresponding to his/her expectations. Some habits may work in one case for a while, but one can decide to replace them with more convenient ones. The most important part of the story is to educate oneself to keep the mornings open for exploring new opportunities or just for personal and family reconnection. 

Although I am still far away of being that successful, I am doing my best to come closer to reaching my potential. Plus, in the days when all goes perfectly well and I can efficiently use two hours at least for some focused activities, it may be that I am ready with work before 17.00 which saves again time for family and friends and maybe another good book to review on the blog.

What the Most Successful People Do Before Breakfast is a recommended - easy - read for anyone trying to get a better time management and succeed in creating a better balance between work and family/personal time. 

Rating: 5 stars


Short Stories from Georgia

This year I want to extend my world literary knowledge, one country at a time. Literature opens doors and eyes and makes the world sound better. It´s the trustful companion of travel, an activity that unfortunately I cannot pursue right now for very clear Covid19 reasons. Therefore, I am avidly looking for writers from those countries that were on my fictional list of countries to see soon...That ´soon´ expired one year ago...but at least I do my best to get ready by updating my literary knowledge. 


´For my first-ever cooking fiasco, I blame my brother and the day he asked me to make two boiled eggs.

You Will Have a Labrador by Nino Gugunishvili is a (very) small collection of ten short essays touching on everyday impressions of a young Georgian woman. The style is direct, ironic, and engaging. The stories are diverse and not necessarily geographically bounded as the author is moving from Georgia to America and France, searching for love, an omelette and new learning experiences or a new haircut. 

I usually love the casual, intimate short stories, like short feature reports in women magazines, but I did have some issues with You Will Have a Labrador. The book is too short - which is anyway a subjective choice of the author to select just a couple of writings to include in the volume. I needed much more to come along with the style and the topics than just ten essays, covering a bit less than 50 pages. Then, the stories are relatively disparate in terms of quality and style, which for such a short collection may influence definitely the overall appreciation of the writing. 

At the end of the book I was left with the unsatisfied feeling that I´ve been generously invited to a party - and the first essays are really entincing and inviting for more and more stories - only to be hushed and pushed out of the building a couple of essays later. As a curious reader, keen to meet a new writer and her world, it was more than frustrating. At least, I´ve learned a Georgian word: ´ara´ which means ´no´...

However, this short encounter determined me to move forward to improve my knowledge about Georgian life and literature, and I already have another - massive - read on the very top of my TBR. Hopefully, will be able to share my literary Georgian journey very soon.

Rating: 2.5 stars

´The Distance Between Me and Me´

´There is love without fear´ says Nina Cassian, adding a bit later on: ´I´ve been in love all the time...Love was a component of my life´.


There is something at the limit of the absurd about Nina Cassian reciting a love lyrical love story to a gathering of (I am sure of it) hard workers from the Heavy Machine Plant in Bucharest, Romania. The scene, featured in the autobiographical movie The Distance Between Me and Me, by Mona Nicoara and Dana Bunescu, is in sync with the spirit of the communist times in the Popular Republic of Romania. 

Compared to many of the second-hand communists installed especially during Ceausescu, many of them highly illiterate and with a very doubtful loyalty - Nina Cassian joined the Union of Communist Youth at 16 and was involved in illegal activities. Jewish, she dismissed the Zionism and even the more socialist/communist oriented Hashomer Hatzair because she wanted to stay in Romania and her beliefs were larger than that. She loved her country and her language and her memoir The Treasures of Memory is a testimony for this love. When the book was published in the country, a couple of years ago, it was received with a lot of outrage from those people belonging, not surprisingly, to the group of ´intellectuals´ whose brains were concoted in the illiterate factories of Ceausescu´s dirty holes. Some were the sources of the ´intelligence´ reports about her or authors of reviews dismissing her ´feminine´ lirics. Or both. 

Nina Cassian was a charismatic intellectual. One of those people whose spirit is fascinating the moment she/he starts talking. Intelligence can be irresistible too. In the movie, she is reciting by heart lines and lines of her poetry. ´I was never taken seriously´, she said, maybe also because at a certain point in the cultural history of Romania there were plenty of idiots assuming intellectual roles. Seriously, what else can happen when a state authority forbids using metaphors in literature and poetry? I would love to know who actually let those people, still wondering that they wear shoes after generations and generations of walking barefoot on the fields, what a metaphor really is? ´The enemy is illiterate´. 

Nina Cassian was forced to stay in America after a friend of her, ing. Gheorghe Ursu was arrested and eventually murdered for keeping a diary. By returning, her life was in danger therefore she settled in NYC and married late Maurice Edwards, former manager of Brooklyn Philharmonic, who gently intervenes into the movie. It took her over 10 years to write a poem in English. ´I will leave Romania only if they kick me off´, she confessed, according to some secret police informants. It seems they succeed it, as they did with so many people that actually love the country more than all those illiterate morons heading cultural institutions. 

A poem doesn´t topple a regime, a children book doesn´t topple a regime, a movie doesn´t topple a regime, many of the books that were put on index during communism did not have any chance to topple a regime. The regime toppled many people and set the imposters as its trademark. 

Some were outraged about Nina Cassian´s genuine confessions about hedonistic times and life at 2 Mai or Sinaia during the hard times. She knew something was wrong with the communism, in the end, as it was rather a pretext but never fully realized. Probably many of those workers listening to poetry sessions at the Heavy Machine Plant in Bucharest never grasped too much about love poetry and poetry in general. But although I believe that a writer should know what is going on in the world around her/him, it´s the force of the imagination who´s unlimited, undisciplined and hard to contain within the ideological dryness. Maybe Nina Cassian herself didn´t know how far her charismatic intelligence can lead her.  

Ironically, while watching the movie, I was a bit surprised that there were not too many mentions about her musical activity, which actually was her refuge against the craziness of censorship. At the same time, I noticed the beautiful musical background. At the end of the movie, it was revealed that the music used in the movie was written by her. What an outstading tribute.

Rating: 5 stars

Writing about Trauma in Traumatic Times

 


´The world as we knew is wide broken´. Trauma is more than a personal experience, but it extends to the political and social levels. Actually, there are so many types and times of the trauma, and healing is not always coming in hand. Healing from trauma may not be possible, but writing about it, using it as a literary variation is possible. It may not heal, writing about trauma, but it can break the chain of silence covering trauma(s) and traumatic experiences in general.

Writing into the Wound: Understanding Trauma, Truth and Language, available as a one-hour audio on Scribd narrated by the author herself, Roxane Gay, is a pertinent writing approach to our times. It is so easy to hide trauma in plain sight. Easy, because actually no one will really care about your story if you don´t mind to tell it yourself. You can live with someone a full life without sharing anything about your trauma, without forgetting it any single moment of your life. Thus, the burden is harder and poisonous for your soul and for those breathing the same air with you as well. 

Even you cannot heal the trauma, talking about it, making the right point about it, can help to move forward. Indeed, the trauma may stay with you, but you acknowledge it and you can get along with it, as part of your life story, a story that you can tell through written words.

I only wish one day will be able to take part to one of Gay´s workshops on trauma at Yale´s

Rating: 4 stars


Thursday, February 25, 2021

Book Tour: How to Have 52 Rewarding Weeks of Writing

Being a writer, professional or part-time, may sound and look such an easy profession. After all, you spend all your time in the front of a white (computer) sheet of paper and you are writing about, who knows what. But the fate of a successful writer is not random. You may have a talent but the ingredient that makes you seen and read is called, discipline. A bit boring and glamour-less but, that´s the trick and the secret and the truth.



Actually, I am that kind of writer that love planning and organising. From my short blog posts to my longterm writing, planning a lot in advance and creating a certain organised schedule around this - part-time - activity help me follow a successful routine, for medium term. What about spending 52 weeks - meaning, one year - with a higher focus on writing?

52 Weeks of Writing by Marielle S. Smith is an author journal and planner which may help tremendously writers - no matter the level of expertise and professional outcome towards a more meaningful writing career. Week by week, day by day, the journey is set to be both reflective and productive. 

The journal is organised in several sections: Clarity, Goals, Planning, Tracking, Writing Quotes and Prompts, Reflecting, Goal Overview, Questions to answer etc. It is a very elaborate setting, yet simple enough to offer a good basis for developing the writing skills. First and foremost, by forcing the writer to consciously put aside that time needed to write. It contains specific activities that should be done within a certain timeframe, therefore it smoothly makes writing a regular and relevant daily activity: ´Grab your journal and write your fears to set with you for a few minutes. When you´re ready, set your timer for 10 to 15 minutes, and write down anything that comes up´. 

While reading it, I started myself to answer some of the questions and it definitely helped at a certain point in my writing process. What about, for instance, this question, related to the planning part: ´Have another look. Are you sure this is realistic? If not, what would be more realistic?´ For the overachiever I am it is definitely the right question I don´t always dare to answer myself. In 52 Weeks of Writing one can find inspiration about how to break a goal in many other small, yet more realistic goals and such a move may improve significantly your everyday situation when the overload creates a high deterrent against a happy creative life. 

At a larger scale, I think this journal can be adapted to any other kind of creative activities you want to pursue in a more organised way. Most importantly, it asks tough questions like: ´How often do you use a lack of time as an excuse not to write at all?´. Creative people from all folds of life avoid usuallysuch a question, because denial is sweet, but what about using the next 52 weeks for a dramatic life shift?

The journey is hard, therefore, celebrating milestones, every three months is a rewarding way to keep you moving on and on until your aim is reached. Using the knowledge of an accountability partner is another useful advice that helps not only to improve your writing, but also to keep oneself motivated. 

In over 400 pages, the 52 Weeks of Writing helps any writer to approach the creative work with words with awareness, responsibility and gratitude. Yes, there is a gift, but we need to work hard to not waste it and make the best of it.

Marielle S. Smith is an author, (ghost)writer, coach and custom retreat organiser based in Cyprus.

Rating: 5 stars

Disclaimer: Book offered as part of a book blog tour, but the opinions are, as usual, my own

Book Review: Aria by Nazanine Hozar

There are books that deserve second and thirds chances. Maybe more. Reading is a very subjective endeavour and highly circumstantial, as it depends sometimes on moods and personal settings, and often on the personal relationship with a certain topic and even author. But given its subjective matter, one may also acknowledge the fact that some books are simply either not her/his cup of tea and that they are very objective considerations for not liking a book.


Books about Iran are always becoming the writing hit of critiques, for all the good and bad reasons. One good reason is that there are good, insightful writers coming from Iran, writing in English, although there may be even more better writer writing in Persian not yet translated. Books on the English - or generally Western - market do follow though some market-oriented considerations and there is a certain canon that allows the publications of books coming from non-Western realms. I will not right not go too much into this, maybe on another occasion.

Aria by Nazanine Hozar was described as ´A Doctor Zhivago´ of Iran, after the name of a novel by the Russian poet and novelist Boris Pasternak, the recipient of 1958 Nobel Prize for Literature for the above mentioned work. Dr. Zhivago is a fresco of the Russian Revolution turned into a meditation of art and intellectual life in general. Pasternak was not a disident, although his novel created him lots of problems with the Soviet establishment, and he died in his country and he was not in prison either. The 1966 movie based on the novel - starring Omar Sharif as Dr. Zhivago - was a very popular forbidden movie among Eastern European middle class intellectuals in the 1980s, traded illegally on VHS video tapes. At almost the same time, the works of Pasternak - his poetry, inspired by his collaboration with the Moscow Futurist group is much better that the popular novel - were intensively translated into French and published by left-wing edition houses in France. It was the wind of change in the air and everyone was getting ready. I would label Dr. Zhivago under ´dissident chic´, and I don´t give any credit to dissident acts branded like this. Real dissidents are those risking their life and freedom for telling the truth to power. In Russia, Iran, Turkey, Belarus and elsewhere, people of all folds of life are brutally repressed for their courage to say ´no´, or write critical pieces of work against the establishment. Some of them may never see the light again to share their stories, as they disappear in the hands of the secret police. It´s life or death threat, folks, not a selfie-game.

In the story told by Nazanine Hozar which starts in 1953 and ends in the days of the Iranian Revolution in 1979, a child, which was named Aria - in Persian it is usually a male name, meaning ´noble´ and associated with proto-Iranians and Hindus -, is found on the streets of Tehran. Her fate lead her from a heartless woman who is abusing her in the most cruel ways, to a rich widow converted to Islam from Zoroastrianism who is investing in her education. It is a novel of coming of age, with Aria´s life followed closely from her early childhood until she is a married woman, with a school sweetheart, an Armenian belonging to a family that used to be close to the Shah. The political discussions and the religious topics of discontent are running in the background of the story which gives authenticity, but the story itself is told on different voices without creating a seamed narrative in itself. 

Aria´s voice, for instance, as a child, sounded so distorted and inadequate for her age. The dialogues between characters are so bland that one can go pages of discussions that are not going anywhere and will never go. It makes feel sometimes that the characters are lifeless puppets thrown up from a scene to another by the author but not fitting well any frame. 

The moment when everything woke up and seemed to finally get back to a certain internal life of the story is at the end, when there are some spectacular switches and unexpected changes happening. Revolutionary times may bring some good inspiration, it seems. Although I was about to give up this book more than twice, I´m glad that I was resilient enough to continue until the end of the story as it finally offered a certain degree of denouement. 

One may not like all the books and hopefully there are so many good books around - especially taking place in Iran - worth reading.

Rating: 2.5 stars

Disclaimer: Book offered by the publisher in exchange for an honest review

Sunday, February 21, 2021

Film Review: Dead Pigs by Cathy Yan

 


Dead Pigs directed by the Chinese-born American film director Cathy Yan is a perfect tragi-comical parody of Chinese capitalism. Yes, China, that communist country that went through a horrible cultural revolution, got a shiny glamorous re-brand, and red banners with yellowish characters inspired by the Little Red Book (not Hood) by Chairman Mao may still hang on bridges and buildings all over the country. Party technocrats dressed in cheap suits are promoting fancy real estate projects using the knowledge of failed American architects, just because they look good in the glass box.

The movie is inspired by the 2013 Huangpu River incident, when pigs in Shanghai were affected by an unknown pandemic. In the movie, the pigs´ drama is shadowed by Miss Candy Wang drama: a brave permed small entrepreneur, owner of a hair saloon, her 3-generation house is in danger of being demolished because it bothers the bold development plans of a real estate company. She´s also bothered permanently by her loser of a brother, a pig farmer affected by the pandemic, who´s always under threat by lending mafia for his impressive debts. 

Capitalism and professional success in general, are infantilized. This is a parody of a society, where grannies wasting their time in a smoked-filled taverna are enjoying playing with VR games and Gucci claded characters are abusing poor waiters. Faced with demolition of her blue 1-storey house surrounded by rubble, Miss Candy Wang is facing the bugger from the roof, in her night outfit, with ther white puddle with a pink ribbon in her arms. At the end of the incident, all those present, victims and oppressors do not sing the International but a love song that we, we can sing too, as on the screen is shared a Mandarin transliterated version. Welcome to kitsch capitalism!

Spoken in the Shanghai dialect, this movie is a delightful parody that displays the drama of a country in a transition to no one knows where. At least, there are talented film directors to create visual stories of various fragments of this unfolding show.

Rating: 4 stars

Friday, February 19, 2021

Book Review: Love is an ex-Country by Randa Jarrar

 


After reading her 2014 Salon essay about cultural appropriation of belly dancing I knew I want to read more about and by Randa Jarrar. She´s fierce, bold, open, and a good and intelligent writer. Her takes are often political because identity is politically assigned and chosen, but I am political and my identity too involves political aspects and social priviledges that I am able to deconstruct in full awareness. I am not condescending when I say I want to understand a different identity, because I don´t know exactly the everyday existential content of a different identity. I can only listen and, as in the case of belly dancing, assume that me, as a white person born and living in Europe (by choice) I can only be a cartoonish clown if trying to play in other people´s shoes.

Love is an ex-Country is Randa Jarrar´s latest book, a memoir about the experience of parental abuse, political pressure, longing for her father´s country, coming to terms with her own sexuality and body. Every piece of this life puzzle is polished and added to her story which in all her contradictions and revolt shape her journey. Her everyday experience with America pushes forward her thoughts about what does it mean to be Arab in America. Her relationship with her body, the shape and the colour and the sexual stories wrote on it, or deleted from it, it´s building up barriers and the sense of her own being, liberated from her abusive narcissist father. She is ´confident and gorgeous´ in her ´rejection of mainstream beauty standards´, mostly the result of white people dreams about beauty. 

And there is the inevitably political part of her identity, which involves the longing for the Palestine of his father´s family, which make her a Palestinian writer. I am a very political person and I assume my own political choices and identity, including by saying loudly that for me Leila Khaled is the very opposite of a hero. And that´s all I will write about this part because it is not my story to tell.

I love the way in which the memoir is organised, and the pace and sharpness of the story. From the Egypt to her mother to the closed gates to Ben Gurion and Marfa, Texas, Randa Jarrar lives with devouring passion for life, sex and ex-countries. 

Rating: 3.5 stars

Disclaimer: Book offered by the publisher in exchange for an honest review

Thursday, February 18, 2021

Book Review: The Startup Wife by Tahmima Anam

´Sayonara, church´, Craig says, waving his hand and bidding farewell to millenia of organised religion.


I´ve spent a couple of good years working with and for various start-ups. Some of them were funny to deal with, some were completely outerwordly, in the very bad sense of the word, some were just plainly trying to sell something, while using a language some thought it´s how the future is talking. 

The Startup Wife by Tahmima Anam, with its Utopia teach-incubator and the bubbling brainstorming of ideas that should sound as irrealistic as possible in order to receive impressive, over 6-digit dollars support made me feel like the fish in the water. Yeah, I can see the grotesque, the human and the utopian endeavours of most of the startups I´ve and will have to deal with. It´s really fun the startup life. But Asha, a nerd with the six first digits of pi tattooed who gave up her academic dreams to become a startup wife, it´s a little bit more than all the other start-up people. She married Cyrus, whom she admired in her first school years, and created the code for putting his dream into motion: an app who can match personal preferences to create tailored rituals. Like you put in a magic hat a couple of ingredients and you can have a thematic birthday for your cat or a Hindu-themed bat mitzva. Gd is dead, long live the app!

I would have love to see the story developed around the app, its users and the entire social interactions, but instead, the book delves into the startup culture, its excentricities at the borderline of mental (in)sanity, the sexism and the position of women. All are important topics but not at all original. In the end, it is a matter of how those topics are approached but the story goes further by rearranging in different settings stories that I´ve heard and read about more than once. Asha has the potential of an outstanding character but her pride - as a woman, code-creator and start-up character, other than wife - manifests as an echo of other people´s reactions and expectations.

After a couple of many many pages when felt like about to sleep, the ending, taking place in our current Covid times, has some good twists, but somehow it is too late for properly saving the rest of the story. The dialogue between characters sounds more than once a bit artificious, with references out of context because they do not suit the way in which the characters were projected originally. 

I deeply wished that I like more The Startup Wife, but despite all the shortcomings it was a hilarious reminder of how utopian entrepreneurship can dare to be in the 21st century, but without giving up the patriarchy.

Rating: 3 stars

Disclaimer: Book offered by the publisher in exchange for an honest review


Wednesday, February 17, 2021

Movie Review: Uppercase Print by Radu Jude

Once upon a time, it happened to make aquaintance with someone from Romania. A good mannered, intellectually curious but with a certain penchant for unrealistic human expectations. Someone who looked genuinely interested in my culture and intrigued by my cultural interests. At the time, in Romania people were reluctantly making efforts to open to the public the files of the communist ´intelligence´ services, among which the absurd Securitate. After a good time of getting to know each other, that curious acquaintance of mine confessed that, when she was 14 or something like that, in her school from the countryside she was living alone with her mother, some ´Secu´´ guy visited her several times until convinced her to sign a declaration of collaboration. She did not delve into what exactly a 14 yo or so, in that Gd forgotten countryside could report about. ´What do you think? Would you still want to be my friend?´ For reasons of spiritual health I refused to have anything to do with that person. Yes, indeed, she was a kid, in a vulnerable social context, but what can I have in common with such a person?

Despite a couple of unpleasant political and social early childhood memories, I love Romanian cinema. I really do. In the last post-communist decades, it produced inquisitive film directors, young, rebels, but old enough to remember the communist times and ready to talk about it in a very direct, nonconventional way. Although the cultural establishment may be reluctant to welcome them - some of them do have serious reasons to do so, as for sure they may recognize themselves in characters or situations portrayed in those movies - the international critics do love them, and not because they are ´anti-national´, as they are unfortunately portrayed by people with a common past with my acquaintance. The international audiences of Berlin Film Festival love the quality of their work and the visual dialogue they promote, as well as the topics people like Corneliu Porumboiu, or Cristian Mungiu or Alexandru Solomon are brave enough to delve into. The young Iranian cinema is considering some of them, especially Mungiu, as a source of inspiration and their movies are constantly awarded at international festivals. Back home, some may complain their lack of respect towards the ´national values´ - where those ´critics´ thinking about the endemic corruption and the drama of being sick in a local hospital without enough money to fill the pockets of the nurses for basic care? 

At a certain point, I am still curious why there are not so many movies about the years during the Ceausescu dictatorship. How people were coping with the ´transition´, with the corruption and the brain-drain is an intersting topic, but I would be happy to see a critical, ironical, tragical - you name it - take on the many decades during which the country was rules by two illiterates.

Hence, my rush to watch Upper Print (Tipografic Majuscul) by the prolific and courageous film director Radu Jude on MUBI. I had the chance to watch at Berlinale his movie Aferim! about the forgotten/obliterated history of Roma slaves in Romania and appreciated, both as a historian and a film lover the brave take on such a dramatic topic. The movie was awarded in 2015 the Silver Bear of the Berlinale and it was well deserved for both the approach of the topic and the aesthetical take. 

In Upper Print, the style, as well as the topic is different. He collaborated with another talented Romanian, the theatre director Gianina Carbunariu, known to the German public as well, who is promoting political theatre on topics from Romanian recent history. She was the first to approach the story of Mugur Calinescu, a Romanian teenager who in the 1980s, when the Ceausescu dictatorship was at its hysterical peak, dared to write ´subversive´ messages on the walls on an Eastern Romanian city, such as ´Freedom´, ´We want justice and freedom´, ´We have enough of waiting in line´ or encouraging people to organise in trade unions as in Poland. Radu Jude integrated the theatre part with fragments from the everyday TV shows, including discourses of Ceausescu - made my nauseatic - and militaristic snapshots of patriotic man and women carrying arms and uniforms enroled in the Patriotic Guards, ready to defend their country against the enemies - as it was anything left to take after the ´communists´ stole everything. Watching it is hard to imagine that those images were aimed at real people and were not actually part of a kitsch parody. Just think about the absurdity of news reports about the new big capacity fridges when the supermarkets were almost empty or about meat-based recipes when the main ingredient, meat - stolen by entrepreneurs from the state-owned factories - was usually sold on the black market but impossible to obtain normally.

One of the enemies Romanians were told to be aware of was the Munich-based Radio Free Europe. Mugur Calinescu listened to it and eventually got his inspiration for the slogans. The Securitate guys - describing themselves as ´people who are just following some orders´, and displaying a ´high fidelity´ towards their country - couldn´t tolerate this situation and started a massive investigation to catch the culprit(s). The proceedings as well as the surveillance were dilligently inscribed into the documents recorded in the file used as an inspiration both for the theatre and the movie. 30,000 samples of writing were collected, neighbours of the neighbours of the neighbours turned into night and day watchers of the socialist order and in the end the young man was caught. His home phone was put under surveillance, his friends asked to report about him. His parents, separated, are under pressure to re-educate him. His school teachers are outraged by his lack of national responsibility. Regularly, he is requested to visit the Securitate offices, although he gave up his revolutionary plans and doesn´t listen to Radio Free Europe anymore. His radio is broken anyway. 

Then, one day in 1985 he died. People talk about radiation - this was a frequent talk about during and after Ceausescu, but I personally would love to read more about the use of this method against political opponents - undercover Securitate agents are attending the funerals. It´s over. 

The alternation between cinematic fragments and the theatrical interventions (re)creates background while giving space to the special story of one of the many unnamed victims of a murderous regime perpetrated ad nauseam by small bureaucrats fully convinced that they are serving their country. After all, they took an oath to defend this country, said one of the actors, with an idiotic serenity on its face. No remords that they recruited very young people, almost children, they operate in ´intelligence´ after all. 

Uppercase Print is a heavy story told in a bit over two hours. The main source of inspiration were the secret police reports on the case, made public - although often by manipulating the files or hiding those perpetrators still used by the system for, obvious ´patriotic´ merits - after the fall of communism. But how else can we understand dictatorships in all over the world unless we are aware that what actually a state-organised crime does first and foremost is to destroy the simplicity of human trust. People whose lives were affected by the everyday rituals of a dictatorship remain suspicious for ever towards their fellow humans. Some of them cannot be trusted either. 

Rating: 4.5 stars

Sunday, February 14, 2021

Book Review: A Luminous Republic by Andrés Barba

´How does one love in a world with no points of reference?´

I rarely read a book because it is compared to another one, as I prefer original ideas and work of arts. Although in case the book compared to is one of my favorites, I would definitely be tempted to give it a try - depending on the terms of the comparison. However, I will never read a book because compared to one I haven´t like it. My top reference in this respect is Dr. Jivago by Boris Pasternark - when it comes to dissident writings. Another one is The Lord of Flies by William Golding. 

The multitude of references for A Luminous Republic by AndrĂ©s Barba (translated by Lisa Dillman) including a wise foreword by Edmund White made me change my mind and eventually spend some good weekend hours in the company of this book. 

Told at the first person by an unnamed civil servant by the Department of Social Affairs, it reveals the fate of 32 children that used to live in the jungle area neighbouring the subtropical town of San Cristobal.TIt is a short read but very intense, as it tackle gently yet frontally the basis even of our society. Why? Because of the basic perception of how children must behave. Especially from the time of the Romantic times onwards, the child is considered a pure creature, who´s perverted by the society. Rousseau is talking about ´le bon sauvage´, the good savage, as a description of a ´mythical´ condition of our ancestors living in a natural environment, friendly environment.

´Humankind systematically personifies anything it does not understand, from planets to atoms´.

The events are placed at the end of the 1990s. The street children are feared not only because they are potential or actual criminals, but because they are shaking the average perception of how adults and children should behave. When this linear, evolutionary projection is broken, the society reacts because it feels threatened. The interactions between the 32 children - that will die in the end, being killed - and the adult inhabitants of the city are building up on fears, threats and positions of power. There is no ´original grace´ in this children, and life in the jungle made them even wilder, because nature operates differently than the intellectual assumptions assume to. ´Jungle green is the true color of death (...) The green that devours everything, an enormous, thirsty, mottled, stifling, powerful expanse in which the strong are sustained by the weak, the great steal the light from the small and only the microscopic and diminutive can stagger giants´.

On a large scale ideatic projection, the story is a metaphor for colonialism and the modern/industrialist expansion against nature. However, there is a naturalistic contradiction of the myth of the childhood purity as well. If anyone had the occasion to observe street children in their everyday life interaction or children that lived through trauma, like war, they may notice the violent-oriented behavior. We may not expect them to do it because we idealize childhood, but the human nature operates in a human environment mostly, rarely in one created by literary projections and ideas.

A Luminous Republic is a cruel story with a deeply realistic take. The tempered flow of the story and the slow pace of the narrator, interlinking the events with personal encounters, neats the corners of a story of human cowardice. It must not always be like that, but in this case, that´s the case.

Rating: 4 stars

Saturday, February 13, 2021

Book Review: Fake Accounts by Lauren Oyler

I cannot resist the temptation of reading/listening a book everyone is talking about, especially if it has so many everyday life millenial references and is also partially set in Berlin.


I usually give time to the book everyone is talking about - literally almost everyone it happen to know in my literary realm - but the times we are living are not usual so I cannot escape the hype. Correction: I refuse to escape the hype. 

Reading those days is, at least for me, such a desperate addictive compulsion: I want to read something and I just doing it, no matter the price and the time. I put (almost) everything on hold and keep reading. 2-3 books at a time, no matter, important is to got my safe ticket to the brains world, when my everyday life is happy and blessed and I am grateful for...(you know, the usual Zen stuff everyone should repeat to her/himself once in a while) but still, is missing some normal interactions and intellectual excitement that I cannot always got through my Zooms and calls with friends and relatives and all the online chats that are filling my days. I don´t like ordering clothes online, shops are closed, and I am not so sophisticated to start decorating and redecorating and redesigning my home. Therefore, I am left with the option of buying, purchasing, acquiring books from my very long TBR saved books on Goodreads.

Would you expect from me more empathy and emotional outbursts during those times? Me too, but it happens to belong to a generation that is coping hard to deal with their emotional brains. (This being said from someone coming from a family that also had a serious problem with expressing their human emotions and empathy, so genetically there is a serious background which pledge against my humanisation). In line with a sentence from Fake Accounts by Lauren Oyler proclaiming: ´Your bf just died. Get a manicure´. 

I had access to this book as audiobook, read by Rebecca Lowman. I´ve heard during an exchange on Twitter with another book blogger that the printed version may have a particular page setting, but although I hurried to check it out at the huge book temple of Dussmann Kulturhaus in Berlin, there were no print edition so I cannot comment upon this aesthetic format of the book. 

Instead, I have a lot to say - or pretending to - about the book itself. While scrolling through her bf´s phone, the storyteller - just another unnamed character, not happy with that anyway and not always in sync with a generation whose blessed successful able-to-write-a-coherent-sentence-therefore-writers members are usually keen for recognition and individuality - a blogger writing about everything, discover that he - ´I was almost sure he is Jewish´ - is actually managing an account promoting conspiracy theories. It´s the day Trump got sworn in ´when people look sad´ (at least in NYC). Is this actually cheating what he did? Before finding the answer and after a couple of more online searching - aka stalking, but this is how we operate those days - the infamous bf dies in a bike accident before giving her the chance to properly dump him and the storyteller moves to Berlin where they actually met.

As she ´needed a project, not a bf´ - OMG how perfectly does it sound as the description of someone I used to know, only to replace bf with gf...- she set up various fake accounts on dating sites and she is meeting guys after guys, to whom she tells every time a different story. Is this actually lying? Escape from the risk of being identified online - not that it seems to be anything relevant about her coming out - or just faking? She goes on by altering - lying? - her details in her visa application for the Auslandebehörde - the Foreigners´ Office in Berlin. Until something happens which has to do about faking too (I am not about to disclose anything about the ending, because I was told and read that book bloggers should definitely NOT spoil the ending of a book).

There are many personal references to the author herself in the story: her lown commuting between US and Berlin, a reference to her picture on Twitter. There are many familiar - to me - references about the lazy aimless life of Berlin literary illuminaries, with book critic groups and people so keen to hear your story while meeting randomly in a coffee place only to forget everything the next minute youb bid ´good bye´. Plus, the bonus of relationship anarchy and poly- thing because really, who need relationships nowadays? It´s so selfish and kitsch emotional to be in love only with someone, when you can avoid love and, for instance, enjoy life? You can, and you can too, I just cannot and please accept my apologies...

The story is filled with questions, so many life and relationship questions, unfolding in a very disparate, chaotic way, which copies the pace of life itself. The life we are living when we have to Google someone before a date, or we give ourself fake names for our online activities and we got doxxed once in a while. We are fast to answer but not everything can be reduced to a couple of Twitter characters anyway, and that Instagram account may not obviously explain or reveal yourself. All those fake Rumi quotes and the random quotes about life and success and gratitude can be an act of faking too.

Don´t get me wrong. I really love my Millenial life and I resonate a lot with the character from Fake Accounts. Not all the life fragments and sequences are coming together well in the book and this is not always on purpose, but there are so many questions to ask and answer. In the end, our American in Berlin starts learning German, because there is no other efficient way to get distracted from big life questions. 

Rating: 3.5 stars

Sunday, February 7, 2021

Growing up an Anti-Racist Baby

Children are not born racist. I am convinced about this, as I often watch my son playing together with children from all over the world and representing all possible religions. No skin colour or Gd is strong enough to convince a kid to give up of his/her friends. That´s only what adults do. Or rather they can try prevent. 


Antiracist Baby by Ibram X. Kendi, with illustrations by Ashley Lukashevsky, is a book worth including in a simple bibliography parents should start reading to their children as early as possible. No matter where you are living, there is always racism to fight against, which affects primarily children. Therefore, this book may help even when parents are trying to push their children into the dark kingdom of adult minds. 

Besides parents, educators should read this book too, as it is a very useful tool to educate children in the spirit of universality and open citizenship. Indeed, as the book says, ´antiracist baby is bred, not born´.

Talking to children abour racism must take place in a very clear environment and by using simple yet outstanding ways of talking. Racism should be pointed out and denounced where it occurs. There is not other way to recognize it. 

There are nine steps that one shall follow in order to ´make equality a reality´, but this is rather wishful thinking. For a start, it may work though. There are some of those steps that make a lot of sense like the fact that world and its humans come in different colours, that we are all humans and therefore we should celebrate differences, that children must remain curious and not-all knowing, and also that one should learn how to openly deal with racist language - by denouncing it. There are also a couple of things that in full honesty, you cannot make a child understand, no matter how progressist and intelligent he/she is: for instance, that it is the fault of policies for not having equal access. Keep this one maybe for a 4-5th grade maybe. 

I am not a fan of the illustrations though, as too grotesque for my artistic taste.

Anti-Racist Baby is a a good book for starting or further developing the open mind of children and help them refuse any kind of racist education, no matter from where it comes. 

Rating: 3 stars

Disclaimer: Book offered by the publisher in exchange for an honest review


Friday, February 5, 2021

Movie Review: Beginning by Dea Kulumbegashvili

Once upon a time I watched Repentance (1984) by Tengiz Abuladze more than twice - which is a world record as I rarely watch a movie - or read a book - more than once. I´ve also seen a movie or two by Otar Iosseliani, but don´t remember too much about any of them. That´s all I ever knew about Georgian film directors.  


Beginning/Naked Sky - available on MUBI - is the very articulated debut movie by Dea Kulumbegashvili, released the last year, which entered the official selection of Cannes Film Festival. Shot on 35 mm, it is a very intense - at the limit of the shock - glimpse into a segment of the life of a couple. Following a fire put by extremists to a prayer house, Yana (her name is mentioned later in the story) and David, probably a preacher, are under the pressure of not knowing what to do, although aiming, both of them, for a different future. Yana especially, is like permanently lost in a sea, floating, randomly shaken by the waves.

Right now, I am not sure if the particular details of the events, that they belong to Yehova´s Witnesses, influence the interpretation and understanding of the story. I´ve found the information in a presentation of the movie, and not sure what to do with it. In any case, they look like an isolated group under pressure and unwanted officially, but the meaning of the situation is relatively clear even without a label. 

What exactly it is happening with the woman, which looks and behaves as being emptied, is not clearly put into words. She just want to be left with herself, and than a terrible tragedy happens, but she reacts far less intense compared to her everyday escapism. Her silences are long closed-ups leaving the viewer in the difficult situation to fill it with sense. But not all have to be told and some silences are better left empty.

Rating: 4 stars 

Wednesday, February 3, 2021

Book Review: The Thirty Names of Night by Zeyn Joukhadar

After many searches, most of them unsuccessful, it seems that I´ve finally find my 2021 first favorite read. Delivered to me as an audiobook.



A Syrian-American trans-boy is reckoning with his past, present and family, while symbolically accompanied in spirit by his ornothologist mother killed a couple of years ago. There are everyday stories which intersects in an immaterial time with Layla Z.´s, whose diary is read alternatively. The secret roads uniting them, and in dead, his mother, is the search for a bird whose existence most thought it is impossible. United by their background, the food knitting their destiny together, the love for arts and the search for mysterious birds, the main protagonists of the story are threading their story.

As I had access to the book in audio format, read alternatively by Lameece Issaq and Samy Figaredo, I felt more than once the need to hear again some fragments. The beauty of the writing itself is unique, as it combines a story in itself adorned by the beauty of the wording. One feels how the story grows up, from the very beginning until the end. Although there are many topics approaches, among which the coming out of the closet of the unnamed narrator - because his given name does not fit him any more -  is one of them. 

The pace of the story reminds of a fable, an old mythical tale transposed in a modern city, where sometimes sparrows may be falling out of the sky. The 12th century allegorical poem by the Persian poet Attar of Nishapur (that I have to review on the blog one of those days), The Conference of the Birds is mentioned more than once, is the main poetical references in the book, as a reminder for the knowledgeable reader that we are reading more than a simple migration/gender identity story. 

I rarely, if ever, read a book twice. Most probably, The Thirty Names of Night by Zeyn Joukhadar will be one of the very few. Until then, I would definitely check very soon the other books by this author.

Rating: 4.5 stars


Monday, February 1, 2021

Book Review: Untraceable by Sergei Lebedev

The recent case of unsuccessful poisoning of Alexei Navalny, Putin´s most vocal and brave critic, brought back into the political stories the case of the (ex)KGB employees, wandering freely the world for vengeance against dissidents and defectors, one drop of poison at a time. Two years ago, Navalny himself accused Putin for being behind the poisoning of Sergei Skripal, former Soviet military officer that operated as a double agent for the Brits, together with his daughter, Yulia, on the UK territory. During and after the end of the Cold War, news about the long poisonous arm of the Russian secret services were aired regularly and served as inspiration for movies and books and maybe poems too, but for sure many historical research about deadly intelligence. 

The use of poisons as weapons or messengers of dead sentences, however, is much more earlier than the creation of the KGB. In the Middle Ages and further on, in the Renaissance, not few were the princes - and princesses - who requested or created themselves deadly chemical combinations. Remember the stories about pages of books that you can only turn once - because imbibed with a poison that once in contact with the human skin kills slowly - most probably through anaphylactic shock?


Having this mixture of news, historical facts and fiction in my mind, Untraceable by Sergei Lebedev does not approach a shocking topic. Actually, reality can be much gruesome than fiction, especially when it has to do with old and new Russian/Soviet games. The book traces several cases of revenge against defectors with long-time involvement in the business of deadly substances in the Soviet Union and Russia. No matter what´s the name of the country or of the institution, there is no mercy for the traitors.

In the case of such a topic, what makes a difference between a nonfiction, historical book about murderous intelligence, and a work of fiction, is the art of the writer. Personally, I´ve felt tempted to focus on the non-literary aspects as poisons are a really interesting topic to learn about - although I abhorred chemistry in school. However, my nonfiction attention span was distracted by the writing which is dense, creating ambiances and exploring psychologies of people for whom deceiving is their first nature. 

There are parallel stories of former defectors, themselves in moments of doubts and crossed about their real motivations and longing to return - the self-deceit is stronger than the conservation instinct. In this chemical world, consciences are as volatile as the elements used in creating various deadly potions. Taking out, one by one, the many layers of the Matrioshka dolls, one may go as far as the WWII and the Nazi experiments, or reach most recent events, as the war in Afghanistan or Chechnya. As the stories about creating poisons, the international events are the background allowing the stories of the unhappy spies to unfold.

I haven´t been surprised in a long time by a Russian writer. Lebedev sounds so self-confident, and fresh, taking a relatively worned out and unattractive topic to polish it, change some angles, add some psychological dilemma and relaunch the post-Cold War fiction narratives. Only the interest for new geographical areas distracted for a short while the attention from the old Mother Russia, although its boys kept making into the news, in the classical style of the James Bond parodies. 

Untraceable was published in Russian in 2019 and translated into English for publication this year, right in time when Navalny´s state poisoning is in the news. I bet it will not be the last such occurrence. The translation is seamless and reading the book feels like it was written originally in English. It is an outstanding achievement in the case of two languages so different. The English translator is Antonina W. Bouis, considered one of the best literary translator of Russian literature. Among the authors she translated, besides Lebedev, counts: Mikhail Bulgakov, Tatyana Tolstaya, Yevgeny Yevtushenko, Andrei Sakharov or Arkady and Boris Strugatsky. 

Rating: 4 stars

Disclaimer: Book offered by the publisher in exchange for an honest review